maxy is a sotong !!

Am i a real sotong? People mentioned SPC and i thought SPCA straight away. And i asking why u so cruel, abandon the animals you rear. HAHA. Actually SPC is Singapore Petroleum Company. People around me laugh until cannot stop.

I am doubt i am but not really true.

Allright. Count down 1 and 1/2 days more, is year 2006. Wish all of you good luck and lucky all the way till year 2006. New resolutions? Too much to list out. I will miss the people i love and care always even though seldom meet up.

My last entry for year 2005 shall end here. We shall meet again in year 2006.

27th December 2005...........nephew justin's birthday

Happy birthday justin. He's 3 yrs old this year. We are having a great time in Mid Valley. He's having Baskin n Robbins ice-cream flavour strawberry. Is nice and foC. Why is it Foc? hahaha............secret between justin and me.

He's going to start his kindergarden next mth. Must study hard ya.

rainy day.......DONG ZI leh

Fren remind me, why i never blog for so long. Am here again.

Donno what to write also, so just never blog.

Going to be end of year 2005. Finally grown up one year old. Is raining cats and dogs right now. Whenever i order a lifting at jetty, sure there is raining. ha ha..........too bad then. Today not my fault because is not me who order the crane.

Yesteday hava a fanstactic christmas lunch........turkey, ham and others......more & more & more. My colleague make a dessert, banana chocolate ice-cream. Let me tell you all, is delicious and marvellous. Am going to give it a try and learn how to make it. I dont like turkey actually.....taste very smokey. hmmmmm...........how to describe then? haha.........anyway, the environment is heart warming.

Send my regards to all my dear frens there. Merry Christmas and "Dong Zi" (today). Expect christmas gift? haha.......

Ok lah....need to get back to work. Hope my nonsense here never bored u ha...........keke

30th Nov 2005

Today is my elder sister's birthday. Happy Birthday! May all your dreams come true. But she scared of ageing. Hee hee......have to take it anyway. But then , my sister is still very young. Younger than me 3 years. Have a happy family with 2 sons. Blissful life. :)

As for me, going off to my company dinner and dance. We are going to have lucky draw after the dinner. I saw there is 2 in 1 steamboat. I dont hope to get that one cos am getting it last yr.

Ok....gtg. GOod luck for me.

Kermit the Frog....62% Organization, 45% abstract, and 67% extroverted!

This test measured 3 variables.

First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.

Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.

Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.

You are mostly organized, both concrete and abstract, and more extroverted.

Here is why are you Kermit the Frog.

You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Kermit is also reasonably tidy. He'll even dress up for interviews.

You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Kermit spends a lot of his time as a reporter collecting facts, but he is also the author of the dreamy song "The Rainbow Connection." You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course.

You are both extroverts. Kermit gets along with everyone. Sure a few folks annoy him, but that's just because they are annoying. Kermit likes to meet new people when he does his job as a street reporter. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team.

Life discerning dominant ideal seeker

You understand that new does not always mean better and you see no reason to skip from one fad to the next. You value things that have stood the test of time, things that have proved themselves. You can give a 120% when you need to, but know that you don't need to 100% of the time. You know that life is for living, and you're smart enough to make sure that you have time to relax, chill and just be yourself.

You tend to identify more strongly with your own thoughts than any other personality. To others you are the one with the sharp intellect, strong need for independence and privacy, and intensity of your cerebral interests. You love explaining the world and predicting what it will do next. This derives partly from natural curiosity, and partly because you sense much of the world to be unreliable, requiring that you use your intellect to bring order to your own corner of it.

You have a strong desire to investigate, observe, and understand an issue deeply and provocatively. You are often independent and self-motivated, with a strong need for privacy. For example, others will often have no idea what you have been working on until it is finished and unveiled. Some of the greatest minds in history had similar traits, people whose ideas challenged the conventional wisdom, forcing those around them to think differently.

Famous people who share these traits include:William Rhenquist, Stephen Hawking, Helen Keller, Arthur C. Clarke,Sigmund Freud, Nikola Tesla, Isaac Newton.

Happy birthday Fang Fang

My youngest sister birthday today. Happy birthday. Ask for present? Ha....what do you want leh? Say out and see whether i can afford to buy or not?

Guess today weather is fine n windy. Not appetite at all cos feeling sad. :( Am bad?

Took my medicine and put eye drops. Sianz of doing it. Still need about 2 weeks, my vision can be bck to normal. I don want to wear spec leh. I look very ugly wearing spec. My fren told me as long ur heart is good, u'll look pretty always. Is that so? Don agree with u leh. Who know ur heart is good or nort if he/she don know you at all. I don believe such things in this kind of world.

Am slacking in office today. Piles of work for me to finish but donno where to start leh. Am proscatinate now. Sigh......

Bck to work after 5 days MC

MC for whole week. Finally back to work. Thanks for the people who show concern to me. But eyes have not fully recovered. GIve my eyes sometimes. In the movie Stairway to heaven, Jin SHu lost her eyes and needs cornea. Her brother sacrificed himself just to let Jin Shu to see the world again. If i blind, i wont have such luck to meet such a good guy to contribute the cornea for me. keke....i think too much this time but this is how i feel when i find my vision is blur recently. My sister said i siao. Yah......i am.

Stay at home recuperating last week. Kaoz.....everything also cannot eat. My mum, dad and sister so gan jiong with my food. Let me tell u, almond biscuits not allowed to eat while they bought so much delicious food from "Puasa" stall. Hey...don eat in front of me leh. The temptation make me wanna faint. Argh.....Saw the food on the table make me so irritating .

Long time nvr chat with Hiang. Last Saturday, we chat until 2am. Super talkative right...keke. Know Hiang since Sec Four . A docile girl like me but she is a pretty girl with a nice voice. Guys out there. No chance for u leh bcos she has been booked. Girls are born to serve guys. Is that so? I can understand girl heart. Had gone through relationship which had brought happiness, misery and bitterness to me. Nothing matter now because is all in the past. I dont look back. Guys and girls have difference view. Whoever will win in the end? Ha......probably girl ba. Guys don wan to fight with girl only. Nonetheless, guys and girls wont be equal.

Letter of divorce.....Is funny

Letter of divorce

Dear Husband:

I'm writing you this letter to tell you that I'm leaving you for good. I've been a good woman to you for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you had quit your job today and that was the last straw. Last week, you came home and didn't notice that I had gotten my hair and nails done, cooked your favorite meal and even wore a brand new negligee. You came home and ate in two minutes, and went straight to sleep after watching the game. You don't tell me you love me anymore, you don't touch me or anything. Either you're cheating or you don't love me anymore, Whatever the case is, I'm gone.

P.S. If you're trying to find me, don't. Your BROTHER and I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!

Your EX-Wife

Dear Ex-Wife

Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It's true that you and I have been married for seven years,although a good woman is a far cry from what you've been. I watch sports so much to try to drown out your constant nagging. Too bad thatdoesn't work. I did notice when you cut off all of your hair last week, the first thing that came to mind was "You look just like a man!" My mother raised me to not say anything if you can't say anything nice. When you cooked my favorite meal, you must have gotten me confused with MY BROTHER,because I stopped eating pork seven years ago. I went to sleep on you when you had on that new negligee because the price tag was still on it. I prayed that it was a coincidence that my brother had just borrowed fifty dollars from me that morning and your negligee was $49.99. After all of this, I still loved you and felt that we could work it out. So when I discovered that I had hit the lotto for ten million dollars, I quit my job and bought us two tickets to Jamaica. But when I got home you were gone. Everything happens for a reason I guess. I hope you have the filling life you always wanted. My lawyer said with your letter that you wrote, you won't get a dime from me. So take care.

P.S. I don't know if I ever told you this but Carl, my brother was born Carla. I hope that's not a problem.

Signed Rich As Hell and Free!

Where is my vocal cords?

Nice Saturday. Whole family members was at home because we are celebrating my mum's birthday. We had seafood dinner at the restaurant. I like the crab a lot. Come out, i never eat a lot because not much appetitie. Suddenly no sounds coming out from my mouth because my throat inflame. No mood because cant talk as usual. Using body communication only. Everyone is teasing at me.

In the afternoon, drove nephew Justin to McDonald. Workers cant understand what am trying to said. Had to point the picture what exactly food i want to order. Argh.......Does not talk too much because i cant talk clearly at all. Want to talk but people are scared by my voice. Become mute during the weekend. How hard the life is not able to talk? Being as a mute person is not easy to overcome.

Life is really unpredicted. Heard from my sister that gal A and B are going to divorce. Gal A and B is siblings. But this setback never turn them down and they become stronger. I feel sympathy towards them. Behind there's a sad story which i don want to talk about it. Just that i feel what happen to marriage right now? Men and women married because they had promised to love and take care of each other till the end of their life. The situation has changed drastically. Is the men or the women fault? No other solution? The victim is the children. What will happen to their children? Belong to mummy or daddy? I also donno. Sigh.......

I do believe there's still happy marriage. Just like my family and other's people around me. I will still have FAITH towards it. CHERISH is the most important words in my life now. I like this songs a lot, " I DO" from 98 degrees.

mummy birthday 23 September

Happy Birthday Mummy! i like my mum a lot. She is a good mother who care and love us more than herself. She sacrifice her time for her 5 children. Today all of us cant gather together to celebrate with you but we will celebrate with you tomorrow. Hope you will like the jade pendant as your birthday present. How to desribe my mum? No words because is deep inside my heart. I love you.

Recently feeling unwell. Toss around in bed yesterday night because my throat is in pain. Had finished my medicine but still have not recovered. No appetitie to eat my food also. Sigh.....Hopefully my sickness will get better before Monday. May God Bless me. I feel am so blissful when i sick because they are some people who care for me. Is heartening and warming to me. Love you all. I know am very bad and naughty sometimes. Sorry if i say something hurtful and bad.

Busy with my work recently. Burden and stress increase. Have to learn to manage my stress. Or else i will get temperamental easily. Bear in mind wor, maxy. One of my friend's dad has passed away. My condolences to you. She is alone by herself right now. Take care.

Had saw my makeover photo. Am satisfy with it. They are making it into an album. I choose digital outlook. But dont know what is the effect come out from the album. Hopefully is nice.

Coming to end of year 2005. World is changing rapidly. What i shld do in the coming year. My wish never come true this year but still have 3 months to go. Maybe my wish will come true. keke. Anyway, my life is quite steady now. Have to keep up with my hard work. Embrace myself. Jia You!

unexpected and expected things in September

So much things happen recently in my life. Unexpected and expected things. September is a bad mth actually.

I do not how to describe my feelings right now. Cant stop my tears at this moment.

Life full of uncertainties

Long time never meet up my "quai quai" gang in Malaysia. Must find time to meet them up. Or else they think i go missing again. Finally Gal XX able to find her own new world and forget all the misery she has gone through since last year. Anyway, i'm happy for u. As for me, still the same. Hopes and dreams far to reach and is my wishful thinking only. My misery is my past but happiness never fall upon me. Be happy and content with what i have right now. Not much expectation because the more I demand, life will be hard to go on.

Hope each one of us stay happy always. No matter where i am, you all are my best friend who will be there for me when i sad and bad. Haha....Hiang (your birthday present and house warming present still with me + the korean vcd).Opppss.....so sorry about that. Keep on forget return back to you. Hui Ling, my birthday gift for you since January still with me. Think i really quite busy and do not have time to pass you the birthday gift. Bad...bad..bad. As for Lis, you still at China during your birthday, so i never prepare your 2005 birthday gift. Dont worry, u will receive it on 2006. keke. As for myself, I wanna give you all a kiss because i like the present you all give it to me. Hiang, everybody compliments at the belt u gave to me. Lis, the "tian zu" looks very unique.

mAKEOVEr PhOtO finally is out!

Finally the photo is ready to see. Too bad, next week then i can able to choose my photo. Not much expectation. Just hoping it will look better than 4 years ago. Ha ha. Look slimmer......not possible. Look prettier.....don hope.....sigh. Anyway, just to have a look at how i look after 5 years of transformation from a small girl to a lady right now. 5 years since to be a long time and i have past my time in my hometown. Not much happening during this time but i have a great time with my friends. If the photo is nice, i will let all my friends see. If not, too bad. It will become my collection photo. wahahaha.........

Surrounding looks a bit quiet and chao recently. Hopefully will be fine after this month. September shall be a new start again because is my 2nd year in this company. This few days, busy dealing with people and vessel. Just completed analysing my VHF marine transceiver ICOM model: IC-V8. Shall take a rest now because this transceiver make me headache for few hours. Finally, able to solve the problem. *grin*.

Stairway to Heaven

This is my favourite Korean show right now. Is an unforgettable love stories. Seems like i still live in my wonderland. But the ending is a tragedic ending. Please prepare yourself with a box of tissue paper. ha~ha~ha :)

Song-ju is the only son of a wealthy family. Jung-suh is Song-ju?s childhood friend, and they were there for each other when one of their respective parents passed away. They spent a lot time together, playing, and sharing their inner most thoughts. When Jung-suh?s father re-married Tae Mira, Mira brought her children Tae-haw and Yuri from her previous marriage. That marked the end of Jung-suh?s happy days. Yuri was jealous of the privileged life that Jung-suh led, and vowed to take everything away from Jung-suh, including Song-ju. When Song-ju left for his studies in the U.S., he gave Jung-suh a necklace as a gift of his love.

On Tae-hwa?s birthday, Jung-suh gave him a birthday present. Tae-hwa mistook Jung-suh?s kindness as love, and he fell head over heels in love with her. Jung-suh never accepted Tae-hwa as her heart is with Song-ju, but Tae-hwa became Jung-suh?s soulmate after Song-ju left as she weathers life under the tyranny of Mira and Yuri.

Song-ju returns 3 years later from his studies and calls Jung-suh to meet him. Yuri runs Jung-suh down with her car in a mad bid to stop Jung-suh from her rendezvous with Song-ju. In her state of panic, Yuri sends a bloodied Jung-suh to her own father?s place. Tae-hwa tracks Jung-suh down and takes care for her. Jung-suh survives the accident but forgets everything about the past. Tae-hwa decides to start life afresh with Jung-suh by giving her a new identity as Kim Ji-suh.

Song-ju thinks Jung-suh has died, and is heartbroken. He returns 5 years later with Yuri from the US. He can?t forget Jung-suh, but feels obligated to Yuri, who?s stayed with him for the past few years. He agrees to his mother's arrangement to marry Yuri.

On their engagement day, Song-ju sees Kim Ji-suh on the carousel and runs madly after her, only to realize that the person with the same face as Jung-suh has no memory or collection of her identity as Han Jung-suh, or of him Cha Song-ju. Kim Ji Suh is a fashion designer and is in a relationship with Tae-hwa.

Song-ju goes on a mission to prove that Kim Ji Suh is Han Jung-suh. Ji Suh is confused by Song-ju?s action, but she is also touched by his actions for Jung-suh.

Jung-suh finally remembers the past and is angry at Tae-hwa for what he did. But she is torn as she is still emotionally attached to Tae-hwa, and is touched by the care and love that he has showered her all that time when Song-ju was not there. Song-ju is also torn as he is to be engaged to Yuri, and his family?s reputation is at stake if he does not follow as planned.

Song-ju decides to give up his family business and goes against his mother?s wishes to be with Jung-suh. But Jung-suh knows that one of Song-ju?s aspirations is to expand and scale his family?s corporation to greater heights. She asks Song-ju to go back, and promises to wait for him.

Unfortunately, Jung-suh finds out that she has cancer of the eye. She decides to leave Song-ju, and she takes refuge with Tae-hwa. Song-ju is tipped off by Tae-hwa, and both men beg Jung-suh to seek treatment and fight to live despite the devastating odds. Jung-suh eventually agrees. She has a successful treatment but she continues to be in danger should the cancer cells move to another major organ.

Song-ju invites all to his wedding, without announcing who the bride will be. Tae-hwa brings a blind Jung-suh to the wedding, much to the surprise of Mira and Yuri. At the same occasion, Tae-hwa breaks the news to all about the accident and both Yuri and Mira are taken away. Jung-suh changes her mind, and says ?Yes? at the altar.

Tae-hwa sees Jung-suh happily married, but is sad that she is not able to see the world anymore. He decides to donate his cornea to her but the doctors refuse to perform the operation and tell him that they don?t remove corneas for implants from a living person. Tae-hwa commits suicide in a car accident to leave his cornea for Jung-suh. Jung-suh regains her eye sight and tells Song-ju her desire to live.

Unfortunately Jung-suh?s cancer cells have moved to her brain and she is dying?..

Life........complicated

Few days more, is going to be 1 year i work in this company. So far so good. Still have a lot to learn. I enjoy working in this industy. Is fun and thrill because everyday I learn so many new spare parts. Through out my working life in this company, I learn a lot of things from my manager and supplier. They think maturely and perhaps can say they have see things more than me. Is indeed a blessing to me that i have widen my knowledge and see things clearly. All works and play make Jack a dull boy. wa~ha~ha. Luckily i not Jack cos i am Maxy.

The path of growing up is tedious and challenging. No one will know their future and outcome. Same for me. But they always an opportunity there.

Yesterday watch a Korean love series. Another bad ending again. Haiz......Going to dry out my tears again.

A Boring Day for maXy

Few days ago i went to the Yatch Sailing Club at Changi for lunch. Indeed a nice place. We are having an Oriental food there. Food we order are deer meat, steam fish, boiled prawn and bean sprouts with salted fish. I like the boiled prawn, very nice ya.

Yesterday took 1/2 day leave and settle my own things. hmmm......very boring walking around. Walk.....walk....and walk.....still alone. Iddling around with no direction. So just shopping around at Bugis Junction. Day without working is boring to me. DOnno wat to do anyway. Just wondering, how nice is it if got my frens accompany yesterday? Haiz......

COnvocation Day on 10 Aug 2005 at UM, KL

Finally my sister has graduated with a Degree in Business Administration. My parents are very happy with it. Both of their daughter has graduated from the best U in Malaysia. Behind is the ceremony hall which has fire 3 years ago. The renovation completed on 2003 and there was the time i holding my ceremony there after the big renovation. Think my sister is very happy. See his face and my daddy's face too :)






This is the photo we took at the studio taken by my brother. Hope 4 of us are always that close including my brother too.

Bck from SMALL Holiday - KL & Genting

Indeed a great trip. Too bad KL has a terrible haze. The PSI has reach 500 and it means hazardous. WOW......suffocating and most probably can smelt the burning smoke at all the open area in KL. WOrst is your eyes feeling blur and watery, not able to breath very well and feeling very tired. Come out, mAxy having a sore throat too.

This time the Carnival Sales in KL was not that great compare few years ago. DONNO WHY esp my favourite Vincci Shop does not have 50%-70% shoes at all. Even have, not suitable for me at all. Luckily got this alternative shop namely Nose. Able to buy 3 pairs of shoes. Total shoes i bought is 7 pairs. Keke. Think someone think i quite scary. Besides that, i bought a lot office working clothes. Able to bough a clubbing clothes, my favourite 3/4 khakis and long khakis. My satisfaction was high because this is the first time i use my earn money to buy whatever i want and no need get from my parents.

This trip, my family is with me also because actually our main purpose is attending our 1st younger sister convocation in University Malaya. Not able to take a shot with my siblings this time. Feel a little bit "pai seh". We shall take a photo at the studio this weekend. Hope all of us will look very nice inside the photo. :)

Long time never been to Genting Highlands. First World Hotel has more shop to browse. Even though the room rate is cheap but the food there is very expensive. NO Choice, a lot of people still having their holiday there. The weather there is cool and relaxing most importanly. Look upon going to Cameron Highlands cos never been there before.

A memorable trip for Maxy from 9th August to 11th August 2005.

Maxy BIRTHDAY CHARACTERISTICS

July 10 - 15 ~ Dog
If you are a Dog: A very loyal and sweet person.Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends,all of them being quality-personified.

Mmm....is true also de.

sad....sad.....saddiness

Feeling sad since yesterday. Leave has not approved yet. Gonna miss out some fun with my family. The sadness become saddiness today. Sigh........Hope to take a small break for myself. Planning has been made since early of the year. Come out, i am the one cannot join them. Is a big discouraging to me.

An increment make my life become workaholic. Poor maxy neh...growing old so fast and gains nothing right now. Just me and myself. Everyone got increment will feel happier but i opposite. Don seem to feel happier at all. Maybe time has past so fast while i keep on sitting down watching the shooting star pass in front of me. Lack of courage and seems like don bother for things around me now. I become a bit unfeelingness in some part of my life. Other than works and my family, i dont pin for anything now. Really become so SB suddenly. Think i decide to deceive myself a lot. Suit myself to everybody as long they are happy. Happiness seems to be drifter farer and farer.

That kind of feeling make me feel so loss for this moment. What i have promise myself seems to be forgotten for this second. Very bad right? I know what i need but i just cant go back to where i belong.

DONNO...DONNO.....DONNO. Grumble also no use. Pour out my hearts to somebody i trust. That will make me feel better.

Unwanted maxy.......

Nothing much happen again. Life so-so. Still keeps going on. Seems like someone say i looks very desperate. ISnt so? Well..i donno whether is truth or not. Mebbe is true ba or maybe not. No answer from me because i cant give an definite answer also. Unwanted maxy.....somehow someone teach me to put like this unwanted heart. See whether got any ppl response me or not. Hmmm....got ppl response indeed. Since when i feel like that? Because i getting old liao. =( Maxy, think too much again ba.

How was my career? Well...is indeed a good start for me from this year onwards. I'll learn as much as i can because i don wan myself to waste 3 yrs effort in getting a degree for nothing. At least, got people appreciate my intelligent. Wanna groom me to be a good tech adminstrator. Sure, i'll try my best. My job is indeed challenging enough for me to explore something that i never get in touch before.

Yesterday i met an aunty age 50 yrs old. She told me that she is happy even though she is not married and without any children. I reply her that i still SA even thou igoing to 30+++ few yrs later. She told me that women who never get married will become spinster. I reply her that is not true for anyone ba. Later she ask me another question again. Will i get sad when one of family members die? Definitely lah. But she say she wont. Meet another weirdo again. Better ciao faster after buying my dessert de. Donno how i should reply her liao? I wont become so bad like her ba when i go old. Another weirdo in this world...........DONNO

Friday

wow...tomorrow is my off day. is really wonderful for me cos i can have 2 days break. But i havent apply my leave for August because seems to be uncertain due to my job. Haiz.....quite dissapointed if i cant make it. will spoilt all my plannin

i HATE black cat........evil

Seeing a black cat is just like seeing a witch. Since that incident, i hate seeing black cat. This incident still vivid in my mind. Even my family still remember this incident. Why Singapore have a lot of black cat? Whenever place i go, sure have black cat.

Before that incident, someone tell me that the black cat is more evil than normal cat. This black cat are possessed by some devil that we cant see with our own eyes. I think their eyes is evil enough. So whenever i see a black cat nearby, i try not to see their eyes because is evil. Is true to me ba. So u know wat my sister do. My sis will purposely open his eyes to stare back at the black cat. I ask her why she do like that. She reply because is the black cat eyes that makes me fall down so badly and wanna do something stupid. keke. Weird hor

Anyway, i hate seeing black cat. Is evil..evil.....evil

Busy weekend....

Well..last Saturday having a ONE year old birthday celebration for my nephew at my house. Over 50++ person are being invited. Very crowded indeed. Phew.....luckily i managed to entertain most of them by serving them food and drinks togerther with my siblings. We really looks like Indonesian or Filipino maid on that day. keke. Is worth it and enjoyable. My parents is very happy on that day cos this the the first time they organizing a birthday party at my house, somemore is their own grandson. Ya la, ya la, now grandson is more important than us liao .Nvm, we still have each other siblings. Hmmm....i get jealous ha.

That day, i just open 1 can of Calsberg and everyone attn is on me. My mum asking me since when i know how to drink beer! ha.......since i born lor....crap. Faster put my Calsberg back into the fridge so my mum wont grumble at me. Lastly i throw away that 1/2 can of beer. The next day, she still asking me but i act blur lor. Change topic. I very good at this. haha. Think she must not see my birthday's party photo where the table is full of liquor.

Thru out the day, we are happy and enjoy ourselves even thou all of us seems very tired. The party ends around 12am++. Is time for us to tidy up the place. Finish all the cleaning around 1am++. Is time for me to Zzzzzz. ha....forget to bath. My mum drag me out of the bed and ask me to bath. After bath, have to dry my hair. Come out i sleep at 2am++.

MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS for maxy

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like conflict and you endeavor to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

cool down...

Just need some time to cool down myself. The fact is i bringing myself into another shit. Postive thinking is required. For goodness sake, i shouldnt make myself so miserable. Arousing me, there's fren and family. There are there for me always and concern for me. I shall not dwell about it anymore. +ve...+ve......+ve, Just be positive. I need support also.

I find my living style much more simple. Think i did not adapt myself very well here. Besides working, my life is zero. Money is more important or happiness? Happiness must support with money. Or else will suffer. I wanna bring happiness to the people around me esp my dear one. So there's nothing to think about it anymore. Just a peanut, think for so long. haha..just joking.

I describe myself like a sandwich better. Always between two other parties. Think for them and never think for myself. Good people always die faster. Seems to be true :(

dilemma......

What shall i do? I also donno. Life is stagnant for me at this moment. Nothing seems to be great and wonderful. What is the things that i miss out? Hoping for what ? hoping to take a nap......haha crap.

going home to take a small nap...ciao

12 July 2005 * my special day in 2005

How i celebrate my birthday tat day? I having a great time with Eugene and Jamie. Dinner is at Al Dante Italian restaurant at Esplanade. The view is attractive because i sitting at the open view roof top. Too bad, Jamie never join us. I order spaghetti arragosta (lobster...bla bla bla) and Eugene having pasta linguinea (prawn....). The pasta taste nice plus the place is very romantic. I do enjoy myself there because i like sea view. I wanna recommend to my blog's reader who like to enjoy themselves while eating. Is a very romantic place. Try it. Let me know whether is nice or not? hee...

After my dinner, went downstairs called Makan Sutra for my 2nd round dinner. Shld i call it dinner or supper? hahaha....anyway i enjoy the food a lot because all the food are my favourite. There is bbq stingray, öyster egg and shell. Eugene order himself Guiness Stout while my one is a can of Tiger. Yummy....yummy. Can give it a try cos the bbq stringray is very delicious. Wanna order BBQ chicken wing but think i burping *burp*. SO must give a break to my poor stomach. Around tat, Jamie finally join us for walk walk. We explore around esplanade and i take a lot of photo. Is my 1st time taking picture at Esplanade and took until Gene's memory card is full =) keke

Finish our exploring, Eugene bring us to Eski Bar. Darn cold sia......i wearing short sleeves and skirt. No wonder, i keep on trembling. We order 1 jug of whisky dry which cost $40++ incl the service charge and GST. Very very expensive. After our drink, we still walk around. Come to Westin Hotel, Eugene bring us up to 70th floor for night viewing. Is a nice place. Prove
: see the photo above..not me la.i say the view...haha. So we took some photos there. After photo session, wanna have some booze at this AsiaBar. Too bad...is almost close at tat time. maybe next time.

This year birthday i having a great great time and is very memorable and unforgettable. Thks to Eugene and Jamie.

www.kadyparty.blogspot.com

Today is my birthday. Have an earlier celebration at Coastal Sand Pasir Ris, B09 since last Saturday, 9 July 2005 to 11 July 2005. Most of guest list make an effort to come for my party.Very touch to see all of my fren esp Lis and Hiang. Purposely make a trip from Msia to Singapore just to attend my birthday. This party has leave me a memorable and unforgettable things in my whole life.

This party namely kady party because kazae and me are celebrating together (FYI). Arrive at chalet roughly 2.30pm and we start to prepare all the things. Since this is my first time here, i really go out for walk walk because nothing to do in chalet also. Went to the jetty area to look how many type vessel is along the jetty there. Somemore, i like to sit near the beach just to enjoy myself. About 5.30pm, is time for me go back to chalet and help out all my dear fren. Eugene, jamie, madeline and Kelly is busying to start up the charcoal. Seems i look like a supervisor, monitoring their schedule for the whole day.

Finally party start. More and more ppl are coming in to celebrate my party. Me, eugene, jamie, kelly,madeline and kazae start our food 1st...our stomach is *groaning*.....kekeke esp Eugene. Really appreciate what he have done for this party. We can see his hardwork and effort. Cheers! Seeing madeline get a stalk of flower from her dear make me so envious. Wondering whether got people give me flower also. Surprised.......Sharon arrive with a bouquet of pink roses with a bottle of Vodka Rasberry. Thks a lot. Luckily got Sharon give me flower..or not i'll feeling a little bit sad. Wanna take some photo with some of my presents.......arranged all the booze and present at a table.....someone say i look like a bargal.........hmmmmmm.......=p. Wear so nice and got ppl say i look like a bar gal. Chey....

Everybody is enjoying themselves while i take care of my dear fren from Msia cos they look a bit tired, Mebbe rushing down to my party after their work. Suddenly my colleague, Celine wanna go back 1st because she's bringing his daughter, Tricia and she need to rest and sleep. She really give me a good present before she leave. Play five ten with me + 2 Chivas tea. Kaoz....the whole game she only lose 2 or 3 times. So the 2 Chivas green tea belong to me. I really gone after finishing the 2 cup of Chivas. Argh......

The whole day, i just able to laugh and hang over there. So not playing five ten with my fren. Ask Eugene to play with them. This is my frens first time playing five ten. Is quite interesting to them, so they really enjoy tis game. keke. At this time, Eugene is drunk also. So they play with 7-up or coke only. ha......

Wah....still have a lot of things to say.....but i quite tired.......why don like this......all my blog reader, pls refer to my website above, u can be able to see all the photo. ROughly you will know wat is happen exactly on that day.

A memorable and unforgettable mandy's 25th birthday in Coastal Sand Singapore.

Fun Facts about Cancerian

Deeply intuitive and sentimental, Cancerians can be one of the most challenging of the zodiac to get to know. Emotion runs strong for this sign, and when it comes to family and home, nothing is more important. Sympathetic and empathic, Cancerians are greatly attuned to those around them. Devotion is the key word for this sign, making them wonderfully warm, sensitive people to be around.

Friends and Family
Traditional and maternal, Cancerians make excellent parents. In fact, all aspects of family are number one to this sign. This can be seen in the homes they make and in the dedication to duty they display. Cancerians are often willing to overlook personality conflicts when it comes to family, simply because they are related. Whatever needs to be done, you can count on a Cancerian to go the distance for a family member. They are deeply sentimental and are diligent about keeping family albums and history intact. Passing on stories to the next generation is a favorite pastime.When it comes to friendships, the Cancerian is very helpful. They're almost always willing to lend a hand, providing it doesn't conflict with family obligations. Friends are held in high regard and are generally of like mind. Because the Cancerian generally prefers the home scene rather than going out, folks that enjoy visiting and sharing activities such as cards or at-home dining are top picks for buddies. While their deeply intuitive, heart-not-head personality makes Cancerians very sympathetic, it can also make them a little hard to understand. Time is the cure for this!

Career and Money
The Cancerian can be as tenacious as they are sensitive. When there's a job to do, they roll up their sleeves and get to it. They especially shine when performing caregiving or related tasks, and make excellent nurses. Other career ambitions can include housekeeper, gardener, and journalist. A Cancer's love of country gives them the base to being an outstanding politician. The need to feel as though they are making a difference, however small, is essential for this sign to feel fulfilled.Security is of the utmost importance to the Cancerian, and money is no different. Making money generally comes easily, and putting it away is usually what happens. Cancerians are not overspenders; in fact, they are far more apt to invest a few dollars and make their money grow. Many Cancer personalities see money as a symbol of their status in life and are inspired to build up healthy bank accounts as a result. Cancers are resourceful and manage their time and money well.

Love and Sex
"I feel" is the key phrase for Cancer, and this is all too evident when it comes to love. Tender and gentle, the Cancerian will show sensitivity with their lovers without a second thought. They love readily and choose a mate who can understand them as much as possible. Superficial or overly ambitious partners are not well suited. The Cancerian will look for someone who is equally as intuitive as they are. They are devoted partners, love children, and marry for life.

CANCER TIDBITS

Health
Each sign has a part of the anatomy attached to it, making this the area of the body that is most sensitive to stimulation. The anatomical areas for Cancer are the breast, stomach, and the upper liver.

Ruling Planet
The ruling planet for Cancer is the Moon. Considered representational of the feminine, it rules women in general. Further, the Moon governs instincts, moods, tides, personal interests, desires, needs, magnetism, growth, the need to touch, consciousness, and fertility.

Color
The color of choice for Cancer is silver.

Gemstone
Cancer's star stone is the Pearl.

Lucky Numbers
Cancer's lucky numbers are 4 and 6.

Compatibility
Cancerians are most compatible with Scorpio and Pisces.

Opposite Sign
The opposite sign of Cancer is Capricorn.

The Perfect Gift
The best gifts for a Cancer are collectibles or an item for the home.

Likes
Family, hobbies, house and home, parties

DislikesOpposition
failure, being told what to do, advice (good or bad)HouseNatural sign of the Fourth House. This house rules home, endings, property, a parent, foundation, and the latter part of life.

Famous Cancerians
Robin Williams, Sylvester Stallone, Princess Diana, John Glenn and Phyllis Diller

My Birthday party at Coastal Sand Pasir Ris

Today my first time to celebrate my birthday in Singapore with all my new frens here. Thanks to Eugene, our Kadyparty leader and the gangs. Well....have received 2 present till now. One is MNG hangbag and another is ang pow. Guess how much i get? wow.........is quite a big sum to me. Thks Eugene mama. She help me to cut the sotong and stingray. Make me feel so "pai seh". Somemore she sponsor her aluminium foil, handmade sambal and sesame oil. Thks.....Thks. Eugene....ur mother is very very nice. Luckily i also have a nice mama. SO not envy of u...=p

Anyway Eugene mama say the stingray is not fresh enough.Think stingray shld buy from morning market more fresh. But she put a lot of onion and sambal....will be delicious.Don worry.....cos i have test the sambal liao. Is really "pedas" (hot). Yesterday when i cutting the onion, the juicy make me cry. Argh.........so embarassed. Found out a secret too.....wanna know, ask me. hahaha............=)

Hopefully everything will goes well today. Everybody can enjoy themselves too. Think the boonze make ppl wondering whether we are clubbing or celebrating birthday. keke. Joan say the boonze so little. Ha! Well......later u shld drink one btl of vodka ribena. I'll reserve for you. Don worry!

Time has pass so fast. This year i'm ??? yrs liao. Haiz......so old. Somemore got ppl calling me aunty? Guess who? Anyway.....is a reality i'm one year older. Shld be more sensible and better than lastyear. Thanks for all the people who put in their effort to make today party going on. I really do nothing for my party. Really sorry.

See all my dear frens later. CHeers!

Come back from KL holiday!

Finally i back to work again. today feeling a bit low blood pressure. vision blur and wanna faint......argh. Quickly grab a sweet and chocolate to regain my normal blood pressure. Seems to be allright now.

KL trip is fun and interesting. Miss my old school days with my uni-fren. Shopping at Chee Cheong Kai and Golden Triangle place. Able to buy 3 MNG clothes. WOW!!! Never buy much cos my sister keep on remind me to buy more next mth because that time is the Carnival Sales in Msia. So i keep on remind myself not to buy so much. keke. But i miss the chance to go to Mid Valley, which is my favourite shopping mall during my school's day. Make sure i make a trip there next mth. Never explore much place because we don don have so much time. Kl is a big area indeed. Well......i more familiar with KL town and Petaling Jaya. Not able to bring them to eat Bat Kut Teh, dim sum, Ampang Yong Tau Foo and others......Shld try it next time when u all have chance to travel there.

My birthday is coming soon. When? Ppl who know me sure will know! What present i like to receive? See my dearie what present they will give. Guess must be something clothes or accessories. No bear bear for me pls. Think i wont get it. haha. Aiya.......present for me must be useable to me k. This is my first time celebrate my birthday party in Singapore but the feeling is a bit different . Y? Guess? No matter what, everything seems to be in control. Take as the things come. Don wan think so much.

Gonna go back home now. Tata

Browsing Malaya University website

Long time never log in my university website. Just checking out the convocation day for my sister. Is on 9 - 14 August. Good timing cos 9 August is Singapore National's Day and is my off day for that weekend. Think is my long leave again. Quite happy. Just browse thru the website and found out MBA courses for postgraduate. Quite interested. Either full course or evening class. Evening class will be very tedious because morning still have to work. A lot of research and dissertation need to be finished. Where got time. The time schedule is fully packed for this MBA courses if choose full time. If i wanna go for study again, i need to go back to KL there. Possible but think i cant use to it. Study MBA is quite tedious. Is not a bad idea if i go back to study again. But........then i don have money to shop and cant go travelling again. Not possible for me. Hmmmmm............

Things change so much recently. Feel very sianz. Regardless what i have done, the result will still be the same. Just feeling tired to do anything now. I go back to my old self again? Where's my motivation and support? Is time for me to recharge my battery again.

Lis, what i should do? Is the environment change or do i change to worst?

Nokia 3230

Just bought a handphone yesterday. DOn feel like wasting too much money on handphone. So never buy Sony Ericcson. Still ok. Functions roughly same with my Nokia 6670 but have PtT and visual functions. Satifastory. Think my sister will be happy owning a new model. Anyway small children like them like to show off.

anger turn inwards.......depression

Some believe that depression is really anger turned inwards. This might be something i want to seriously consider. How well do i handle anger? Do i express it at the time or bury it? Does it make i feel uncomfortable? Anger doesn't have to be the enemy. It can be an excellent signal that something isn't right for me. I must try viewing it this way and seek out ways to communicate it when it occurs. Stuffing it can only make things worse.

Breaking my own record.....

Long time never break record. Again! Ha. stay awake for almost 2 days . working in the office now. hang over somemore arghh....Most of them still sleeping and maybe having their sweet dreams while i look like a small vampire, jumping here and there. frenz wanna meet me in JB today but i cant make it cos i feeling tired now. i almost 3/4 gone liao. shall take a nap later on.

Coming to another weekend. Wat shall i do? Boring lehz........

my day

today was bad. watever, the day going to be over soon. forget it.

Have something to say:
my manager's daughter younger than me few years. She called Serine. Looks cute and gentle. But is a sad thing to know she is having a nervous breakdown. Today, she came to the office and helping us do some works because my manager does not want his daughter to keep herself in room. Quit her school recently. Somehow feel sad for it. Mumbling to herself all the time and seldom talk to people. She kinda live in her own world. What happen to her actually? Can she be cured? Why they didnt send her to mentality hospital for treatment. Face problem or others? I donno.....

Things are not good always. There are bad times too. well...just need to receive and shower all our kindness and love to our dear one and friends. I may not be the best, but i'll try my best to be the best. very chim right?

Zouk KL

Zouk KL

Zouk is so near to KLCC Tower. Finally know where it is.

crabby.......

think i overeat again. how much i consume this time? chicken wing, grilled squid + shells (my fav), ice kacang, fried yee mee and satay. no wonder, i keep on say i full. shld restrain ha. i m fat ......fat....fat......angel and devil.Please do something.

Lis gonna hit my head cos wanna wake me up. haha.......think i juz being coma for too long liao. haiz.........is my weaknesses in my life. change myself is not easy. the break is kinda too long for me.

my sister keep on asking me the same question recently.....any cutie and sweetie guys around u? ha......a lot ya.....then ask their fren whether got any good guys to intro to me. sia.....think i gonna dig a hole and hide inside liao.

dizzy.Headache.running nose.....weak

Today is Thurday. Still unwell. Yesterday sleep around 10pm++. Think after eating the panadol and will get well this morning. Wake up and find out my head feeling very dizzy. Still have one more day to work.

Lis send me an sms yesterday telling me that she's still enjoying herself in Melbourne and will be coming back this Saturday to Kluang. She say the photo will cost her a bomb. haha. Waiting for your adventurous photo. See you this weekend.She is my close fren who will remember me whenever she go. Hiang also. 3 gals who will go clubbing together.

My planning for my birthday party seems like no news. Haiz.......

KL Update

Well....check it out that July 2, KL is celebrating this festival at Stadium Merdeka. The place will be close down.

Official Launch of Colours of Malaysia Month
Dates : 02 Jul. 2005 Place : Stadium Merdeka, Kuala Lumpur

Hawker Stands and Restaurant Rows
Restaurant Selera Kampung $$1/2Address: PWTC areaDescription: Looking for late night dinner in the PWTC area ? This is the place. Open 24 hours - very cheap and extremly friendly staff.

Sao Nam Restaurant $$1/2Address: 25 Tengkat Tong Shin Description: Looking for something a bit different? Head over to the trendy Sao Nam Restaurant in the Bukit Bintang area for authentic Vietnamese cuisine. The staff couldn't be friendlier and are more than willing to help you navigate the extensive menu. All around a very nice experience.

Jl. Ah Lor $Address: Jalan Ah Lor - Various MarketsDescription: Located just north west of the famous Jalan Bukit Bintang is a wide spread of tantalizing local food. Some of the best Chinese hawker stalls and coffee shops in Kuala Lumpur can be found here. It starts from 7.00pm till late.

Chinatown Night Market $$Address:Corner of Jalan Sultan and Jalan Hang Lekir - Various MarketsDescription: The best Hokkien noodles (black soya sauce noodles) and Bah Kut Teh are commonly sold in many stalls for only a few Ringgit especially along Jalan Raja Laut. Another interesting thing to try is the skewers steamboat, where food is on skewers and you just pay what you use or cook, according to the empty skewers on your table.

Chow Kit Market $ Address: Jalan TAR - Little India - various restaurantsDescription: This is the place you go especially after a night long of partying for all night nasi lemak. Saturday nights are packed with many stalls selling good Indian food along Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman (TAR).

Bangsar $$$+Address: Bangsar area - various restaurantsDescription: Similar to Boat Quay in Singapore, Bangsar is a favourite hangout place for expats and wealthy locals for good international cuisine, chic looking restaurants and pubs. Frangipani mentioned above is but one of the many great eateries along this street.

Sri Hatamas $$Address: Sri Hatamas area - various restaurantsDescription: On the outskirts of Kuala Lumpur, this is an upcoming area to hangout with rows and rows of trendy international restaurants from which to choose. However it is slightly quieter than Bangsar as there are not as many pubs and the closing time is slightly earlier. Most of the locals come for food or just to chill out on Saturdays or Sunday nights

Entertainment

Kuala Lumpur (KL) today is a bustling commercial centre by day, and an exciting place for entertainment by night. It could be named Asias next big entertainment and party capital as discerning clubbers from around the region and the world over are hotfooting to KL as their rest and relax location of choice these days.

You would be spoilt for choice as every junction you turn, a clutch of nightspots, each so different from one another, attracts the fickle loyalties of party-goers. No doubt, there is never a dull moment in KL. Whats more, the various races and cultures offer a great base for many festivals and cultural shows.

Dance Clubs
One of the latest additions to the dance club scene is The Backroom KL, which is the home of KLs most outstanding and popular dance scene. Electrifying atmosphere at most times, this place is creeping with life till the wee hours of the morning. Equally famous, Vivid Dance Club is slowly gaining momentum and is also a favourite place to be seen. Beach Club Café on the other hand would be less conspicuous in an idyllic resort setting drawing an already ecstatic crowd with perennially pop tunes. By night, the Hard Rock Café, a usual favourite, is the haunt of an eclectic crowd who are all ready to groove it down to the varied sounds of rock, soul, R&B, funk and blasts from the past.

Bars and Pubs
Some of the best bars and pubs can be found at the newly yuppie suburb of Bangsar Baru, a serious partying ground in bustling KL. Featuring nearly close to 50 entertainment outlets, this is where you would find The Roof, a fancy New Orleans inspired décor, in its three-storey façade with wrought-iron balconies overlooking the busy streets of this famous entertainment haunt. A few steps ahead is the Echo Jazz Bar, easily the hippest bar in Bangsar and is famous for hosting all pre-party events.
Near the Golden Triangle over at Jalan Conlay is the Conlay Club, an exclusive club with KTV rooms, pool tables and a café as well. Other watering holes around the area include The Pub with its local band, Power Play, playing its set of popular hits, while the famous Benson & Hedges Bistro is ever drawing its loyal customers with its great coffee and snacks. For something really funky, try The Monkey Bar where everything is themed around monkeys.

KL holiday mth of july and aug

July
My fren decide to go on July 1 and 2. Well...is my job to book the hotel and plan the itinerary. As for the hotel, i am looking at crystal crown hotel in PJ area. Rate is RM130/nite. If not, choose the one in city area. Still have not confirm yet. Still looking at some other hotels also.

Itinerary
Fri night - arrive my hometown. Think shall book them hotel. Even u all not going to sleep, but still need to bath and refresh yourself. Hey fren, on me ok. I shall bring them around and later go back and sleep. Driving for 3 hrs need more sleeping coz is my responsibility to drive safely.

Sat morning - depart early in the morning to KL. maybe eat something first in my hometown and reach KL, either eat at Chow Kit Street or PJ area. If Chow Kit Street, eat famous fish porridge and others. If eat at PJ area, eat bat kut teh or dim sum. Check in hotel first. After that, start our sightseeing journey. Start from PJ area first, Mid Valley Megamall.....after that One-U in Damansara. Later, maybe go to KLCC, town area or Sunway Piramid in Sunway. One in west and one in east. Hmmmm......see how first. Late afternoon, we shall go to city area. Chee Chiong Kai and Golden Triangle. Distance between this two places is very near but scared jam only. So our main transport shld be bus. Can really hang out that area quite long. See whether they wanna go to Pasar Seni. Look c look c only. Better have our dinner at Chee Chiong Kai coz got more variety. Shall see how is our schedule on that day. This is juz planning. After that, maybe go back hotel for bath and shall adjourn to Bangsar area later. Clubbing and pubbing place. After that, to Zouk. Actually i donno where this Zouk is. Ask Kenneth to bring me there. Donno whether he is free or not.Handsome guy always have a lot of activities lor. Maybe we took a taxi there. Is safer coz all of us will consume liquor drinks. After clubbing, will bring them for supper if can. Mamak stall at SS2 or Tmn Megah. Or Chiew Kit Street there. Depends on our schedule too. Will they sleep? haha

Sun - breakfast.......then go to KLCC and Sunway piramid i think.....orh ya still have KL Tower to go........no Batu Cave pls......think they are not interested also........well.......depends how it goes......go back my place at late evening.......

orh ya....still got kajang satay....klang seafood......well.......depends on our schedule....if we really got many hrs to go......can go to Malacca too. see how ya.


KL trip on August---my sis's convo day + family outing
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Congratulate sis.But a bit pity. Just another 0.04, u can get a first class honour. Well, the time shld be Aug 10 or 11th. Still havent confirm the convó day. This time shall book two hotel room in Crystal Crown also. One for my sis's family and one for my family. Tell my sis. She pay for her own room while i cover for my family's expenses. At least spend in KL for 3 days or 4 days, Depends the convo's date.Shall have 1 day trip in Genting also. Book the First world or Genting's hotel?Havent decide. My sis has get ready the money for the Carnival Sales, at least RM1000. She asking me how much i going to spend this time. Haha. Who knows? Think not too much la. At least Rm1000 too. Think my bro-in-law and my daddy have hard time again. Ha......coz 2 yrs ago.....they experience themselves waiting for us to shop around. Change from Starbucks to McDonald and then to KFC. Think they are totally bored. Well.....since u have 4 pretty daughters........wat to do. hehe.

getting better today..tuesday

finally maxy can hop and run around again. haha. i win the battle fighting with the virus. today still a nice day for me. everything went so smoothly. Thinking all my vessel on rusia, thailand and vietnam, i can have some peace. come out, still the same. i have to keep track their ETA port and their necessaties. make me really headache is Thailand and Vietnam ba. Is really hard for me to find my networks there. well........

Something struck my mind yesterday when reading my books. Just wondering how blissful i am now. shld control my temper really. i wanna have a good temper like my elder sis but still cant. try very hard liao. maxy, shld try harder ok.

A sweet + scary + warm hearted weekend

last week is a wonderful weekend coz all my family members is all around. my bro and sister in-law also join us. total family members = 12 person.count wrongly. have to minus one coz my mummy went for wedding dinner.haha. my mummy wanna join us but too bad.hee....... feel really happy being born in this family.

last sat, just arrive home around 3.30pm and feel my body suddenly is wrong. so weak and jelly. Means i'm sick. Till date, i have been taken 4 panadol. hate eating medicine. wat to do. without tis panadol, all my activities will cancel. reach home and join in my siblings for karaoke. then my mummy ask me to fetch my nephew back. so off i go. bad things happen. i bang the car again. kaoz.........maybe was the the panadol effect. cant see there's a car behind me. luckily the paint went off only. so is a blessing in disguise. now i feel a bit scared to go reverse due to the incident. tell my bro and he say is ok. nvm. think my bro is really a good bro. protect us and never scold us. i really take it for granted. haha

my parents really pamper me. mummy know i like durians so she ask daddy buy durian for me. And also i like to drink soya bean.so mummy purposely go to this market and buy. really feel so touched at that time. i should not be so wilful from now on. suddenly have this urge to bring them to China for holiday. Planning next year to go 2006.

My family say i can drive up to KL. Everything went smoothly. Think my parents know their daughther has finally grown up.

nice sat morning

argh...........my comp hang again and i have to rewrite my blog once more.

wait......wait.....and wait.......another 1 hrs more, i'll be going back to my hometown. My nephew just won 4th place for the baby contest. Congratulate!! Tonite will go and receive the winning prize. What to eat for the dinner tonite? Think......think...think..........As for my supper, wanna take my favourite chicken wing and tou hua......

Yesterday night went to Suntec, Sky Garden for Vietnamese food. I ate Satay fish with rice + chili paste. Is very nice. I like it very much. After the dinner,decide to go back and take a bus 70 to serangoon north and chg to bus 147 near my place there. wow.......sounds so expert right? haha....sharon is just beside me. i just follow where she go. don expect too much from me coz i not driving here.....have ask my bro why he's so familiar with the road in Spore coz he drive around so often here. the bus stop and the landmarks all along the way roughy is similiar. how i know where to alight down. somemore is night time. actually i have been trying very hard to recognize some of the road in Spore but still failed.

Surprisingly on the bus 70, i found a mobile phone Nokia 8250. Decide to return to the owner but i donno how to do it. so i pass it to sharon and let her return to this owner. I can understand the feeling when u lose ur mobile phone. Is so sad. In return, the gal give chocolate to sharon...since sharon don like eating chocolate, so she will pass it to me instead

Reach home around 10pm++. Time for me to clear up and tidy up my room. Do some laundry too. Finish my things and is time for me to sleep. ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz.........sleep very early yesterday. Having a bad nightmare again.

Love & friendship......

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices: either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you i can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this:

Have you really cared for someone more than you expected? Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name?

Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.

When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind. Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.

Love them like a river because a river flows forever. Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.

Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing.(This goes for gals as well)

hArdly bReAtHiNg recently.....

why? just cant keep myself in peace. still think........think.........and think......well, i am pessismistic again. i got a lot of blessing fr my family and fren........but still feeling troubled....must really repent. hehe. things so far so good, why think so much?

still planning

KL trip...........so far, they havent come to a conclusion yet. luckily coz just found out yesterday my driving licence has expired since 27 May 2005. shall renew tis weekend.

Birthday party on Coastal sand, pasir ris
Most probably ba. decide on July 9 and 10. havent decide also coz havent book yet. hope will be fun coz is my 1st time celebrating birthday in Spore with all my new fren here.

dilemma...........

how shld i do and what is the best? hmmm......contradicting myself again.

Piss off........

fine day + confusing day + ???????

suddenly so free today, really not used to it. well...just enjoy my honeymoon 1st. who know there's more to come soon.

Have decide to go bank and many things on Sat morning but come out do nothing. Sleeping again. Decide to wake up around 2pm and just nice to prepare myself to go for party later. But come out, have this stranger call me up. I think he knows me more than i know him. At first thou is Jamie's fren and clarify with Amie. But is not. Then who am i talking crap too? Somemore i ask who give u my no. ?????? Somemore he wanna join in my party later. haaaaa........i also donno who he is? weird guy. this guy must be my fren's fren. Well....he is disturbing my sleeping time around 12pm. Duhz.......sleep again.........

My A/C fetch me to CLifford Pier coz i donno the way there. haha.......need ppl to take care of me always. Went onboard for farewell party for MV Trenchsetter. Indeed interesting and fun coz this is 1st time we hold such a party. Nice food and wine on the table. I eat quite a lot. Around 10pm++, we come down from the vessel and we reach Clifford Pier. So wanna meet up Jamie in BalaClava at Suntec. Thinking walking distance from Clifford Pier to Suntec must be very near and my colleague say so. Finally reach Esplanade but cant see MRT at all..???????? blur maxy lost again. Well...so i walk around and look for signboard and come out to the Esplanade again. Last resort, ask the security there and he teach me to take a lift or escalator to B2. He is sotong also. B2 is a carpark and up i go again. B1 is the correct way to MRT link. Finally has reach Suntec. Phew..............somemore have ppl ask me how to get to Esplanade.EHzzzzzzzz........just go straight ba.......???????? Hope wont have any ppl ask me for direction again coz i also donno how to go. Have been in Spore nearly 2 yr and have many tourist asking me for direction. Does my face looks like i very familiar with the place here? Wondering y?

Finally meet up Jamie but something happens. Phew............so wanna go back 1st. End up, amie and me having drinks at coffee club near Suntec there until they close. Reach home and is time for me to sleep.

Suddenly hearing my favourite songs, "Someone like me" ringing. Have a look at my mobile and is time to get up. Orchard Road Shopping. Shop around and buy 1 Braun Buffel wallet. Hmmmmm.......i have bought this brand before for a person and cost me more than SGD 100++. I am very generous indeed.

After few hrs of shopping and eating, is time to go back coz i feel very tired.

Seems like my bro decide to have a family dinner this coming weekend. Hmmm...i working neh......my bro has mature and chg a lot after he married. Well done, bro coz he is just 26 yrs old only this yr. Think guy shld marry young because they will become more mature and have more responsibility. Agree? Majority ba. My bro is indeed a good bro. Give me his car whenever i need it, countless is holiday or weekend.

Dark clouds is finally clear

Maxy finally back to normal. Eventually yes i think. hmmmm...... Well this week will stay in Spore because going up to vessel Trenchsetter for BBQ on Saturday. The vessel is at Clifford Pier right now. So have to go onboard early. Will be fun ha. Thinking of bringing down white and red wine.

Anyone is interested to join me this cruise vacation? hee..........

Crying.........

Yesterday was a bad and saddy day for me. My sis and I quarrel over the phone bcoz she herself cant agree with me over something. Make me upset and cry, throw away my phone. I was angry with what she say and she was too. We just cant talk over calmly. End out, we hang each other call. At that time, i was to furious to think what i shall do and behave. Anyway, she call me back coz she know i'll get very unhappy for that incident. I still cant get over it yet coz it hurt me a lot. I know my sis juz wanna protect me only. Actually is good to talk out what she think coz our relationship is very close anyway. Will make us closer than before coz i know what she is thinking and expect from me. I will try my best to do it. Just give me sometimes.I m sure i can do it.

My parents hate our siblings yelling and quarrelling at each other. But that will make us closer coz we are open to talk out from our mind. At this juncture, my daddy will be the one to supervise and grade us after the arguement. He will just say, "Stop all ur nonsence". Everybody will shut their mouth. My daddy is quite a dictator person. We scared of him actually. Anyway, he is a reasonable and good daddy too. Everyone is free to talk. My daddy regret sending me to this school tat make me more rebellious (from his perspective). I miss out a lot of interesting things during my school times because i just don want them to be so unhappy over my things. My school is a christian school and everyone is so open and acceptive.

After one nite of crying and thinking, is over now. Hmmmmm......

A day has just pass

Found out yesterday why my tenant ask me whether i going back home? HA!! Coz her husband and her son went back to Msia. Alone at home. Luckily is not me alone. So scary.......

One of my vessel just sell off with a good price. So end of the year there should be good bonus again. Waiting for that. The vessel officialy sell next week. So my boss suggest to hold a BBQ onboard vessel this Saturday. Ha.......i not working tis week leh. So cant go back again???? Well....inside the vessel have a lot of red wine and white wine. Since we cant bring down because of the immigration's policy, so we can only go up and drink. Still thinking wanna go or not. Feel like going wor.....think......think coz this vessel is very nice

Think start from next week, i can have a honeymoon coz all my vessel either in Sakhalin or Asia. Tat's good. Finally is time for me to take a deep breath and rest since i work so hard for this past few mths. There's 2 new vessel coming in. Ehzzzz........don be so happy yet. Exactly!!

Planning??

Few things to decide:

Nokia 3230 or Sony Ericcson Z800i
Still decide what to buy. Like Sony Ericcson very much not because of the 3G functions but very expensive. Nokia 3230 has the same features as my Nokia 6670 now. I don think i would not regret if i buy that Sony Ericcson but.........what's holding me actually? haiz......

KL Trip
Just told my sister about this and my sister's response is what i expected. Anyway, maxy has to show her pamper power again. Wont be a problem.

Birthday Party...July
Still long way to go. But find out that my guest list not much ppl. Haiz......maybe will cancel my chalet planning and chg to Disco partying. At least, more ppl can join in. Jamie say all my guest is her fren and seems like her bday party again. =(
Who knows there's no celebration at all. Rubbish.........haha.

Sibu Island holiday?
Jio by my fren and cost only RM200. So cheap but think i wont be able to go coz have to spare my leave for Mth of August. Will be going down to KL to celebrate my younger sis graduation's ceremony + carnival sales in Msia

Feel so warm and happy last Saturday because my fren give me a call telling me his going Australia for a holiday and will find me when come back. At least, got ppl still remember my existence when i in Spore. Somemore another fren invite me to watch Star War's but come out is like a sleeping war coz i really very tired.

Still In office

Time is 3.30pm on Saturday. I am still in the office. Waiting for my fren le. Faster leh.

good or bad????

Wah.......time fly really fast. Today is my day i get my pay again. Have been working 1 yrs ++ since i graduate, how much money do i save roughly? haha.......at least got another target to go again.

So much happening today. In my work life + social life too. Well..........is grandmother stories again. hee.....watever it is, the result is somehow bad or good. Different ppl got different perspective. So there's nothing to say who is really right and wrong.

Today received a lot of email from my frens. Rcvd many touching and memorable story from them. Indeed make me remember something that is sweet & nice.....well cant expose too much coz is my little secret.

Another thing is little maxy lost her way in Suntec yesterday. Ha.....wonder why? Is so near yet so far. Haiz............

My 4D come out in 1st prize but too bad

Is really very zun.The number did come out on Sunday. First prize some more but i forget to buy. Bought on Saturday only. Too bad, my luck just go like that. Anyway, lost something but get something nicer. Right?

My weekend during Vesak holiday

On Sat night, wanna drink tea only but come out drink liqour in pub & KTV because Kenneth's fren coming down from KL. Just arrive at the pub, the band and the crowds is having fun because someone is celebrating their birthday there. I never took any drinks coz i driving. Somehow, Kenneth saw my table w/o a drink and quickly find a glass of Chivas and a glass of beer. I drank with Lis. Is damn bored there because no disco in my hometown anymore. So Lis and me feel like going off soon. So we decide to drink tat 2 glass one shot at time. Ha, finally feel a bit dizzy. By the time i want to leave, Kenneth's hand holding another glass of Chivas. He make a deal with me before i can go. 1/2 glass belongs to me. No matter what, have to drink the 1/2 glass. Wah.....feel jelly indeed. Luckily still sober for me to drive the car. My condition wont allowed me to go back yet. So off i went for supper with Lis. We ate chicken wing. We met another group of guy's fren and they join us for the supper. There's a guy (forget his name)is bad luck indeed coz my drink splash on his shirt. haha. Feel really pai seh coz cant hold my drinks at all. Is about 3am. Gonna ciao liao coz need to wake up at about 6am later. Have 1 day trip to Malacca with my family.

After 3 hr of sleep, wake up again. We decide to drive 2 car up and i am one of the driver. Luckily my brother in-law join us and no need to drive anymore. When we reach Malacca, we went to our aunty's hse. We having famous chicken rice for our breakfast. The chicken is very very nice and is in rice ball. Yummy....yummy... Later we go shopping again. Bought 3 pairs of shoes at one shop. Ha, my sis say i a crazy shopper. Nice and cheap wat. Hee......


The main purpose is to eat satay celup. Is very very famous in Malacca. Went to the 1st famous shop at about 6pm and the shop is packed with all tourist esp Sporean . So we decide to change to 2nd famous shop. Situation almost the same. No choice, go to the 3rd famous. Able to eat my satay celup finally. Eat 1st while waiting for my cousin to come to pay the bill later. HAHA. Little devil finally showing her true colours. My cousin wanna challenge me but come to despair, he is on vegetarian that day coz Vesak Day. So i the winner again. The dinner cost about RM100++. Is very expensive indeed.

After some shopping, we decide to went back coz each of us look very tired esp the baby needs some sleep too. Too bad, all the baby having a fever the next day. It was indeed a enjoyable and interesting trip with my dear family. Our next trip will be on KL during mth of August. Waiting for tat day coz is Carnival Sales in Msia. =)

Finally long weekend has arrive

Well, today i shall write in Malays because long time i never practice it.

Detik kegembiraan sedang menanti-nantikan saya kerana keesokan hari saya akan pulang rumah and tidak perlu bekerja pada Sabtu ini. Kebelakangan ini, saya senang naik marah dan tidak bertolak-ansur terhadap orang yang mendampingi saya selalu. Kemarahan ini menunjukkan situasi Maxy mulai tidak tenteram and mula kacau-bilau. Saya tidak suka keadaan saya yang terlalu memencilkan diri saya sendiri walaupun berulang kali mengingatkan diri sendiri bahawa kehidupan saya memuaskan. Walaupun begitu, keadaan yang kacau-bilau mengikuti saya detik saya berada di Singapura. Pada saat ini, saya sangat dan ingin berada di sisi keluarga saya yang dicintai kerana mereka merupakan tulang belakang saya yang kuat dan teguh. Ketidakhadiran mereka mengakibatkan saya berasa takut terhadap kehidupan saya yang porak peranda. Tidak boleh mendefinisikan kehidupan saya begitu teruk kerana saya mempunyai ramai kawan yang boleh mengongsi masalah saya yang tidak begitu genting.

Usia yang semakin meningkat amat merisaukan saya kerana saya tidak mempunyai hala tuju yang terang. Keadaan ini merisaukan saya kerana dari kecil lagi, semua orang sayang akan saya dan menjagai saya. Saya tidak perlu risau akan masa hadapan.

Walaubagaimanapun, Maxy akan terus berjuang untuk keluarganya yang harmoni dan comel. Tiada orang dapat memisahkan hubungan erat kita yang intim. Walaupun saya merupakan seekor ketam yang sensitif and pessismitik, Maxy juga dapat berdikari kerana tanpa keteguhan dan kekuatan saya, saya mungkin tidak dapat menghabiskan pelajaran saya di universiti yang begitu banyak saingan hebat. Kejayaan saya di pelajaran membolehkan ibubapa saya begitu bangga dan gembira kerana saya adalah anak pertama yang berjaya memasuki universiti terunggul di Malaysia.

Detik-detik kegembiraan dan kesedihan yang senantiasa mendampingi saya akan dihadapi oleh Maxy dengan kekuatan rohani . Pendek kata, kehidupan saya boleh dikatakan amat memuaskan jika mahu membuat perbandingan dengan orang lain. Oleh itu, saya berharap saya dapat mengawal perasaan saya yang tidak menentu and bercelaru. Saya rasa kehidupan saya tidak terkawal apabila terdapat orang kesukaan berjaya menceroboh isi hati saya yang lemah. Lelaki merupakan ancaman hangat yang tidak dapat dikawal oleh saya. Ini merupakan kelemahan saya yang sangat bahaya.

That's all for today. Yeppie, cant wait to go back liao coz my schedule is pack for this weekend.

Blog again.

Is me!

７月12日〔木星&#悬吊者〕代表人物：比尔·寇斯比

聪明，能力很强，具有很好的说服能力及外交谋略；懂得激励别人采取行动，擅长发挥个人的影响力。

优点是充满智慧，善于解决问题；负责任，一切事情自己承担。

缺点是喜爱争辩，要求别人顺从，不愿接受别人意见。

Seems like i born on that day, my character is like that also.

My day on 17 May 2005

How come everyday so "zun"? Able to know how i am feel now. Why dont just predict what will happen to me in 2 years time? Expect too much ha.

You may fall into a very pessimistic attitude, mandy. Suddenly everything looks bleak and the glass half empty. You may feel like your life is going around in circles and you may be asking yourself what you are doing it all for, anyway. Realize that you can talk yourself out of this mood just as easily as you have talked yourself into it. Although this may not seem to be the case, you must trust that it is in order to see the glass as half full again.

Well, i have to admit it is.

Freezing Nite......

Very sianz. Just feeling tired. Still have 4 more days to go. Haiz........My confidence are decreasing everyday. What's wrong with me?

Donno how shld i start today and end today? Well, wait until i have good mood first. Someone is bullying me. hmmmmmm.......

Well, my bruise mark at leg has recovered but damn suai today, my hand kena again. Another bruise mark. Somemore feeling numb right now. Kena lottery also not tat "jun". This Saturday, pick one number and buy big big. See whether can kena or not. =)

Tat's all. Very cold today. Miss my mummy's soup.

Cancerian.....on 13 May 2005

Somehow feel is quite true for me today..........Just wondering........*Grinz*

The Bottom Line
How do you get what you really want? Have you tried asking -- or demanding?

In Detail
Everything you think and feel is rapidly tumbling out of your mouth, virtually unfiltered. That's kind of scary for a creature as sensitive as you, but if you spend as much time as possible with people you love and trust, it will turn out to be a positive thing. After all, what could possibly be better than exchanging words of love with those you're closest to -- other than the wonderful, warm hugs that follow those declarations of affection, of course.

seems like good.........seems like bad

Well, very tired even though weekend is coming because i overload with my work. After next Tuesday, everything will be fine. Each colleague treat me very nice esp my A/C Manager. Really like my father. Give up his time to go to church and wait for me to send me home after my work yesterday. Feel so secure because she think of my safety. Really nice of him. Must give him a big treat. What i know is he is the one who give me treat always because he dont allowed me to pay for him. Until now, what i know is he like to eat You Za Kueh and Mango ba. Hmmmm....must buy more delicious food for him. Hope my future bf is like tis kind of guy, like my daddy. This kind of guy is not existing anymore ba. Guy nowadays are more self-centered and basically are influence by the environment. Whatever it is, there are still good guys around.Is whether you or me have chance to know them or not. Heee.......

Tonite J and L will go down to DBl O for the anniversarry celebration. Donno i can make it early or not coz i need to oversee my vessel which arrive in Spore just now and will be leaving on Monday. I in a rush too, oversee their things. Haiz. Hope can knock off early today. So i can go back and take a good bath and doll up myself. Gal are like that.Wanna look pretty and attractive everytime. I not pretty. Tat's why need to doll up myself wor. =p

Looks like fren is just like a foot print in my life. They come when they like and go when they wish. Hmmmm.........i have get use to it. Luckily have a few "close fren" who will give me their support all the way. Is a blessing to me. Never forget what you all have done for me. Is always in my heart. Is nice to remember good things but bad things must erase from my memory ASAP because is just like a roses thorn, prickling my heart. Is painful sometimes! J, i am not defensive always. hehe

Wonderful time past very fast but bad time moves very slow. I too ignorance ba sometimes. Well, is ok to be a kid because this is the way i like. No need to remember. Forget it after a cry and a sleep. Just like a baby. But.......i wont be a baby everytime coz i am not supposed to be.

Dangerous creature around.........

Wondering why this world is so complicated. Everybody so selfish. They think of themselves only. The world is changing rapidly towards a hypocrite world. You never decide to do anything but they are some people who is making use and fun of you. Have taste it and feel very fade up with it. No matter what, i wont defeat by such people who only recognize themselves as the winner. The more u hate them, the happier they are. I will take more precautions to prevent such person.

The time is moving very fast again. I have been slacking a lot recently since i came back from BKK. Right now, i burning the candles at both ends. Wah......is really dangerous like that. Haiz.......

Another weekend

So much jobs in my hand now but still blogging. Hee coz want to take a small rest. Eye is blinking and head is dizzy. Early in the morning, my gastrics come again. The pain is still enduring. At least feel better now.

Have been sleeping whole last Satuday. My mummy and daddy is wondering wat happen to me. Have to wake up around 6pm because my daddy has booked a table for my mummy. I always enjoy the gathering time between us. Think twice a mth, we have been doing like that. So only have time for fren at night.

On Sunday
Donno is Mother's Day or Father''s Day. I bought a new mobile phone for my Daddy. Hope my mum is not jealous wor. Later meet up with my close fren, Lis. Whenever i with her, i feel so relieved talking about our problem.....this and that. No wonder, we become such a good fren now. we blah blah blah until is time for me to go back spore again.

She has a hard time like me right now. Standing in the middle of the road. Take as the things go.hmmmmm..............she encourage me to express how i feel always but i dont dare to do that. Is because she is not a cancerian like me. She born in the mth of January.

Open up myself to this world, enable me to see the world in greater view. Right?

Tired..........

The time now is 6.40pm. Still in the office. Wait for the A/c mgr to knock off at 7.15pm today. If i know he go back so late today, i wont wait for him anymore. Feeling my whole body really like jelly now. No energy, hungry. Well, start counting the time start from 30 minutes.hmmmmmm..........

yeppie, he say can go back now. haha. blog on Monday coz me going back tis weekend. ciao

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

The Real You

Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.