A day has just pass

Found out yesterday why my tenant ask me whether i going back home? HA!! Coz her husband and her son went back to Msia. Alone at home. Luckily is not me alone. So scary.......

One of my vessel just sell off with a good price. So end of the year there should be good bonus again. Waiting for that. The vessel officialy sell next week. So my boss suggest to hold a BBQ onboard vessel this Saturday. Ha.......i not working tis week leh. So cant go back again???? Well....inside the vessel have a lot of red wine and white wine. Since we cant bring down because of the immigration's policy, so we can only go up and drink. Still thinking wanna go or not. Feel like going wor.....think......think coz this vessel is very nice

Think start from next week, i can have a honeymoon coz all my vessel either in Sakhalin or Asia. Tat's good. Finally is time for me to take a deep breath and rest since i work so hard for this past few mths. There's 2 new vessel coming in. Ehzzzz........don be so happy yet. Exactly!!

Planning??

Few things to decide:

Nokia 3230 or Sony Ericcson Z800i
Still decide what to buy. Like Sony Ericcson very much not because of the 3G functions but very expensive. Nokia 3230 has the same features as my Nokia 6670 now. I don think i would not regret if i buy that Sony Ericcson but.........what's holding me actually? haiz......

KL Trip
Just told my sister about this and my sister's response is what i expected. Anyway, maxy has to show her pamper power again. Wont be a problem.

Birthday Party...July
Still long way to go. But find out that my guest list not much ppl. Haiz......maybe will cancel my chalet planning and chg to Disco partying. At least, more ppl can join in. Jamie say all my guest is her fren and seems like her bday party again. =(
Who knows there's no celebration at all. Rubbish.........haha.

Sibu Island holiday?
Jio by my fren and cost only RM200. So cheap but think i wont be able to go coz have to spare my leave for Mth of August. Will be going down to KL to celebrate my younger sis graduation's ceremony + carnival sales in Msia

Feel so warm and happy last Saturday because my fren give me a call telling me his going Australia for a holiday and will find me when come back. At least, got ppl still remember my existence when i in Spore. Somemore another fren invite me to watch Star War's but come out is like a sleeping war coz i really very tired.

Still In office

Time is 3.30pm on Saturday. I am still in the office. Waiting for my fren le. Faster leh.

good or bad????

Wah.......time fly really fast. Today is my day i get my pay again. Have been working 1 yrs ++ since i graduate, how much money do i save roughly? haha.......at least got another target to go again.

So much happening today. In my work life + social life too. Well..........is grandmother stories again. hee.....watever it is, the result is somehow bad or good. Different ppl got different perspective. So there's nothing to say who is really right and wrong.

Today received a lot of email from my frens. Rcvd many touching and memorable story from them. Indeed make me remember something that is sweet & nice.....well cant expose too much coz is my little secret.

Another thing is little maxy lost her way in Suntec yesterday. Ha.....wonder why? Is so near yet so far. Haiz............

My 4D come out in 1st prize but too bad

Is really very zun.The number did come out on Sunday. First prize some more but i forget to buy. Bought on Saturday only. Too bad, my luck just go like that. Anyway, lost something but get something nicer. Right?

My weekend during Vesak holiday

On Sat night, wanna drink tea only but come out drink liqour in pub & KTV because Kenneth's fren coming down from KL. Just arrive at the pub, the band and the crowds is having fun because someone is celebrating their birthday there. I never took any drinks coz i driving. Somehow, Kenneth saw my table w/o a drink and quickly find a glass of Chivas and a glass of beer. I drank with Lis. Is damn bored there because no disco in my hometown anymore. So Lis and me feel like going off soon. So we decide to drink tat 2 glass one shot at time. Ha, finally feel a bit dizzy. By the time i want to leave, Kenneth's hand holding another glass of Chivas. He make a deal with me before i can go. 1/2 glass belongs to me. No matter what, have to drink the 1/2 glass. Wah.....feel jelly indeed. Luckily still sober for me to drive the car. My condition wont allowed me to go back yet. So off i went for supper with Lis. We ate chicken wing. We met another group of guy's fren and they join us for the supper. There's a guy (forget his name)is bad luck indeed coz my drink splash on his shirt. haha. Feel really pai seh coz cant hold my drinks at all. Is about 3am. Gonna ciao liao coz need to wake up at about 6am later. Have 1 day trip to Malacca with my family.

After 3 hr of sleep, wake up again. We decide to drive 2 car up and i am one of the driver. Luckily my brother in-law join us and no need to drive anymore. When we reach Malacca, we went to our aunty's hse. We having famous chicken rice for our breakfast. The chicken is very very nice and is in rice ball. Yummy....yummy... Later we go shopping again. Bought 3 pairs of shoes at one shop. Ha, my sis say i a crazy shopper. Nice and cheap wat. Hee......


The main purpose is to eat satay celup. Is very very famous in Malacca. Went to the 1st famous shop at about 6pm and the shop is packed with all tourist esp Sporean . So we decide to change to 2nd famous shop. Situation almost the same. No choice, go to the 3rd famous. Able to eat my satay celup finally. Eat 1st while waiting for my cousin to come to pay the bill later. HAHA. Little devil finally showing her true colours. My cousin wanna challenge me but come to despair, he is on vegetarian that day coz Vesak Day. So i the winner again. The dinner cost about RM100++. Is very expensive indeed.

After some shopping, we decide to went back coz each of us look very tired esp the baby needs some sleep too. Too bad, all the baby having a fever the next day. It was indeed a enjoyable and interesting trip with my dear family. Our next trip will be on KL during mth of August. Waiting for tat day coz is Carnival Sales in Msia. =)

Finally long weekend has arrive

Well, today i shall write in Malays because long time i never practice it.

Detik kegembiraan sedang menanti-nantikan saya kerana keesokan hari saya akan pulang rumah and tidak perlu bekerja pada Sabtu ini. Kebelakangan ini, saya senang naik marah dan tidak bertolak-ansur terhadap orang yang mendampingi saya selalu. Kemarahan ini menunjukkan situasi Maxy mulai tidak tenteram and mula kacau-bilau. Saya tidak suka keadaan saya yang terlalu memencilkan diri saya sendiri walaupun berulang kali mengingatkan diri sendiri bahawa kehidupan saya memuaskan. Walaupun begitu, keadaan yang kacau-bilau mengikuti saya detik saya berada di Singapura. Pada saat ini, saya sangat dan ingin berada di sisi keluarga saya yang dicintai kerana mereka merupakan tulang belakang saya yang kuat dan teguh. Ketidakhadiran mereka mengakibatkan saya berasa takut terhadap kehidupan saya yang porak peranda. Tidak boleh mendefinisikan kehidupan saya begitu teruk kerana saya mempunyai ramai kawan yang boleh mengongsi masalah saya yang tidak begitu genting.

Usia yang semakin meningkat amat merisaukan saya kerana saya tidak mempunyai hala tuju yang terang. Keadaan ini merisaukan saya kerana dari kecil lagi, semua orang sayang akan saya dan menjagai saya. Saya tidak perlu risau akan masa hadapan.

Walaubagaimanapun, Maxy akan terus berjuang untuk keluarganya yang harmoni dan comel. Tiada orang dapat memisahkan hubungan erat kita yang intim. Walaupun saya merupakan seekor ketam yang sensitif and pessismitik, Maxy juga dapat berdikari kerana tanpa keteguhan dan kekuatan saya, saya mungkin tidak dapat menghabiskan pelajaran saya di universiti yang begitu banyak saingan hebat. Kejayaan saya di pelajaran membolehkan ibubapa saya begitu bangga dan gembira kerana saya adalah anak pertama yang berjaya memasuki universiti terunggul di Malaysia.

Detik-detik kegembiraan dan kesedihan yang senantiasa mendampingi saya akan dihadapi oleh Maxy dengan kekuatan rohani . Pendek kata, kehidupan saya boleh dikatakan amat memuaskan jika mahu membuat perbandingan dengan orang lain. Oleh itu, saya berharap saya dapat mengawal perasaan saya yang tidak menentu and bercelaru. Saya rasa kehidupan saya tidak terkawal apabila terdapat orang kesukaan berjaya menceroboh isi hati saya yang lemah. Lelaki merupakan ancaman hangat yang tidak dapat dikawal oleh saya. Ini merupakan kelemahan saya yang sangat bahaya.

That's all for today. Yeppie, cant wait to go back liao coz my schedule is pack for this weekend.

Blog again.

Is me!

７月12日〔木星&#悬吊者〕代表人物：比尔·寇斯比

聪明，能力很强，具有很好的说服能力及外交谋略；懂得激励别人采取行动，擅长发挥个人的影响力。

优点是充满智慧，善于解决问题；负责任，一切事情自己承担。

缺点是喜爱争辩，要求别人顺从，不愿接受别人意见。

Seems like i born on that day, my character is like that also.

My day on 17 May 2005

How come everyday so "zun"? Able to know how i am feel now. Why dont just predict what will happen to me in 2 years time? Expect too much ha.

You may fall into a very pessimistic attitude, mandy. Suddenly everything looks bleak and the glass half empty. You may feel like your life is going around in circles and you may be asking yourself what you are doing it all for, anyway. Realize that you can talk yourself out of this mood just as easily as you have talked yourself into it. Although this may not seem to be the case, you must trust that it is in order to see the glass as half full again.

Well, i have to admit it is.

Freezing Nite......

Very sianz. Just feeling tired. Still have 4 more days to go. Haiz........My confidence are decreasing everyday. What's wrong with me?

Donno how shld i start today and end today? Well, wait until i have good mood first. Someone is bullying me. hmmmmmm.......

Well, my bruise mark at leg has recovered but damn suai today, my hand kena again. Another bruise mark. Somemore feeling numb right now. Kena lottery also not tat "jun". This Saturday, pick one number and buy big big. See whether can kena or not. =)

Tat's all. Very cold today. Miss my mummy's soup.

Cancerian.....on 13 May 2005

Somehow feel is quite true for me today..........Just wondering........*Grinz*

The Bottom Line
How do you get what you really want? Have you tried asking -- or demanding?

In Detail
Everything you think and feel is rapidly tumbling out of your mouth, virtually unfiltered. That's kind of scary for a creature as sensitive as you, but if you spend as much time as possible with people you love and trust, it will turn out to be a positive thing. After all, what could possibly be better than exchanging words of love with those you're closest to -- other than the wonderful, warm hugs that follow those declarations of affection, of course.

seems like good.........seems like bad

Well, very tired even though weekend is coming because i overload with my work. After next Tuesday, everything will be fine. Each colleague treat me very nice esp my A/C Manager. Really like my father. Give up his time to go to church and wait for me to send me home after my work yesterday. Feel so secure because she think of my safety. Really nice of him. Must give him a big treat. What i know is he is the one who give me treat always because he dont allowed me to pay for him. Until now, what i know is he like to eat You Za Kueh and Mango ba. Hmmmm....must buy more delicious food for him. Hope my future bf is like tis kind of guy, like my daddy. This kind of guy is not existing anymore ba. Guy nowadays are more self-centered and basically are influence by the environment. Whatever it is, there are still good guys around.Is whether you or me have chance to know them or not. Heee.......

Tonite J and L will go down to DBl O for the anniversarry celebration. Donno i can make it early or not coz i need to oversee my vessel which arrive in Spore just now and will be leaving on Monday. I in a rush too, oversee their things. Haiz. Hope can knock off early today. So i can go back and take a good bath and doll up myself. Gal are like that.Wanna look pretty and attractive everytime. I not pretty. Tat's why need to doll up myself wor. =p

Looks like fren is just like a foot print in my life. They come when they like and go when they wish. Hmmmm.........i have get use to it. Luckily have a few "close fren" who will give me their support all the way. Is a blessing to me. Never forget what you all have done for me. Is always in my heart. Is nice to remember good things but bad things must erase from my memory ASAP because is just like a roses thorn, prickling my heart. Is painful sometimes! J, i am not defensive always. hehe

Wonderful time past very fast but bad time moves very slow. I too ignorance ba sometimes. Well, is ok to be a kid because this is the way i like. No need to remember. Forget it after a cry and a sleep. Just like a baby. But.......i wont be a baby everytime coz i am not supposed to be.

Dangerous creature around.........

Wondering why this world is so complicated. Everybody so selfish. They think of themselves only. The world is changing rapidly towards a hypocrite world. You never decide to do anything but they are some people who is making use and fun of you. Have taste it and feel very fade up with it. No matter what, i wont defeat by such people who only recognize themselves as the winner. The more u hate them, the happier they are. I will take more precautions to prevent such person.

The time is moving very fast again. I have been slacking a lot recently since i came back from BKK. Right now, i burning the candles at both ends. Wah......is really dangerous like that. Haiz.......

Another weekend

So much jobs in my hand now but still blogging. Hee coz want to take a small rest. Eye is blinking and head is dizzy. Early in the morning, my gastrics come again. The pain is still enduring. At least feel better now.

Have been sleeping whole last Satuday. My mummy and daddy is wondering wat happen to me. Have to wake up around 6pm because my daddy has booked a table for my mummy. I always enjoy the gathering time between us. Think twice a mth, we have been doing like that. So only have time for fren at night.

On Sunday
Donno is Mother's Day or Father''s Day. I bought a new mobile phone for my Daddy. Hope my mum is not jealous wor. Later meet up with my close fren, Lis. Whenever i with her, i feel so relieved talking about our problem.....this and that. No wonder, we become such a good fren now. we blah blah blah until is time for me to go back spore again.

She has a hard time like me right now. Standing in the middle of the road. Take as the things go.hmmmmm..............she encourage me to express how i feel always but i dont dare to do that. Is because she is not a cancerian like me. She born in the mth of January.

Open up myself to this world, enable me to see the world in greater view. Right?

Tired..........

The time now is 6.40pm. Still in the office. Wait for the A/c mgr to knock off at 7.15pm today. If i know he go back so late today, i wont wait for him anymore. Feeling my whole body really like jelly now. No energy, hungry. Well, start counting the time start from 30 minutes.hmmmmmm..........

yeppie, he say can go back now. haha. blog on Monday coz me going back tis weekend. ciao

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

The Real You

Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Finally is weekend

Right now, my body is in front of that stupid computer while my mind and soul is sleeping. Longing for weekend because no need to wake up so early and have more sleeping time. This whole week never sleep more than 3 hrs per day. I look like a vampire now. Dragging myself to the office.Looks like i torturing myself more than i love myself. Staying up late will make me look old and haggard. eeehhhhhhzzzzzzzzz......so scary. Well, my planning to unpack my things by the end of this weekend also uncomplete coz my room still in a mess.Suddenly feel is wonderful when my mummy is beside me here. Seems like i look very unsystematic recently. Oh ya, the bruise mark at my leg is completely irritating. Hope my mummy and siblings not able too see it. This weekend really cannot wear short pants liao. Must cover the bruise area. Haiz.......Donno how to explain later if they see it

This Sunday is Mother's Day. Bought a semi-stone for my mummy in Bangkok but this is holiday present. Thinking what present to give to my dear mummy. Hmmm.......think she like money bah. But my mummy is the richiest in my family. hee........so why not mummy like that. This year change style. U give us money wor.....think she will beat me liao. Hehe

Life is somehow really like a circle. There is always a point for you to stop. so....shall stop here. yawning.......again and again..........DUh........

A crazy NITE

Feel like puke again. The worst is i at the office now. Yesterday went down to Dbl O & Devil's Bar to chiong. This time i pass my test, never puke but......fall down. Think fall down more than 5 times..is uncountable. My leg really in pain now because can see the bruise mark. Yesterday was a fantastic night because i drunk 2 tequila pop + 2 tequila shots + 2 screw driver + 1/2 glass vodka rasberry. Hmmmm.....still drink a little bit vodka orange together with Lynn, Jane and Pearl. I wanna drink srew driver only but Lynn say not shiok. So go for Tequila pop + tequila shots one time. At that moment, i feel myself really dizzy. Luckily Lynn + Pearl taking care of me. If not, sleep at the dance floor until the next morning. My standard still tat bad. Tooooo.........bad.

What's Your Personality Type?

Your #1 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's" Your Personality Type?

My Birthdate means

Your Birthdate: July 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

feeling weird.......cranky

Is Tuesday today but seems like i very sianz. How come? My thought is really running wild and far away. Donno what i suppose to do with myself. My colleague say i still in holiday mood. Maybe!

Recently feel myself like a kid. Waiting for people to make decision for me and guide me along the way. Hate this one of me. The older i am, the childish i am. :(

Think i over tired myself because just move my room from 5th floor to 6th floor. This few days keep on unpacked my things until early in the morning. That's why feeling cranky. ~hee~ My room still in the mess. Hope i can get it done by the end of this weekend.

How was my bangkok trip? Is very interesting. Sitting in an aeroplance is just like a roller coaster. hehe. The interesting part is we go for AH GUA show. Somehow feel pity towards them of their sex changing. I think too much ha.......

The Day i come back from Bangkok

Arrive at Spore around 6pm and still at CHangi airport. Right now the time is 8.30pm. WOW! Total amount i spend is more than SGD$500++. I am the winner for this trip. How was my feeling right now? Very tired actually. How many thing i bought? EHmm.......not very sure. But must be quite a lot.

Bought shoe, bag, clothes &........ and most importantly Wacoal bra and Triumph bra. Bought 8 sets. Haha. Is very cheap there compare to Singapore and Malaysia. 4 days trip in Bangkok is really wonderful. This is my first overseas trips. Thanks to Sipei & Jamie because they really take care of me there even thou i older than them.

Well, shall adjourn when i have a good rest because i in gastrics pain now. Due to the Thai food and many junk food there. Thai food is damn spicy.